Random Thoughts with Tanya

I have always thought of myself as very much introverted until I would get to know you. I have stood behind that for years. My entire life is how I labeled myself. I just knew in my own mind that when I got to know people, I felt comfortable around them and some people I felt more comfortable around than others. There are some people that are always laughing at the off the wall things I say to make people laugh. Other people might not ever see that side of me. They get a more serious side of me. Recently I made a remark to two separate people about being an introvert. Both people have responded that they disagreed with that remark and one person just met me that same day. I was greeting people at church and she had observed that.

Those remarks made me start thinking about how I had been hiding behind the words introvert and I had given myself that label when deep down I was more of an extrovert than I knew. I have been letting my own insecurities stand in the way of being the person I have always been meant to be. Other people label us enough let’s not put ourselves in a box. Be the person God has intended you to be.

I have known for a while that I wanted to share my testimony. April marks 13 years when I went to the small little Nazarene Church on Euclid and said I have lived all my life doing it the wrong way and now I am ready to try something different. I have stumbled along the way but like any relationship the more work you put into it the better it gets. I am a different person today than I was 13 years ago and even different that I was 3 or 6 months ago. I always say my goal is to be better tomorrow than I was today. Learn from my mistakes and grow from them. I have honestly taken away so much from my mistakes and as much heartache as I have been through, I don’t know that I would change it. Not if it means I didn’t learn what I did. I would only wish others didn’t have to feel the pain for me to get where I got. At the end of the day, I am proud of where I was and where I am now because I know it’s a completely different person. Reminds me of a person I had looked up too and I know he would be proud. I love you Grandpa!

Testimony will be coming soon